healthy body, healthy soul

As I was browsing through random tumblr blogs the other day, I came across the saddest thing. It was a blog written by a 14-year-old girl obsessed with losing weight. She said she was 5’8” and hoping to be 100lbs. She was starving herself every day and every post was filled with self-loathing and envy for those who she deemed “skinny.” 

One of her posts was a survey of sorts. Reading it filled me with the deepest feeling of darkness and reminded me of the pit of despair Satan drags us into:

 I AM -

• [x] ednos
• [x] living off diet pills
• [x] hungry
• [x] starving yourself
• [x] participating in a fast

PEOPLE -

• [x] call me fat
• [x] say I’m ugly
• [x] say I’m pretty
• [x] spread rumors about me
• [x] force me to eat
• [x] wish I’d eat more
• [x] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic

 I WISH -

• [x] I was THIN
• [x] I had a better body
• [x] I didn’t have to eat
• [x] I could control myself
• [x] I was under 100lbs
• [x] I could avoid food
• [x] I could hide what I am
• [x] I wasn’t fat
• [x] I was pretty

 I LOVE -

• [x] feeling hungry
• [x] seeing a difference when fasting
• [x] losing weight
• [x] diet pills
• [x] being able to turn down food
• [x] feeling good about myself

 APPEARANCE-

• [x] I think I’m ugly sometimes.
• [x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
• [x] I have/had braces.
• [x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.

Reading this was a painful reminder of a dark season of my own life, and a very real reminder that the enemy is filling God’s girls with lies that they are unworthy, unvalued and unloved.

He is wrong.

Girls, you are BEAUTIFUL. You are LOVED. You are VALUED. You are DESIRED. You are WORTHY.

The things of this world will never satisfy. Only the Lord can feed your hungry heart. Will you let him show you how much he loves you? Will you see that you are eternally valuable and innately worthy?

(photo via mstimab)